March 2023

It’s 4am and I can’t sleep. Neither do I have the energy to do anything. For a few hours, I cat nap, listen to cooking shows on YouTube and occasionally doom scroll TikTok. On the outside, it likely looks like I’m ‘doing nothing’. Oh, but if you could be privy to the thoughts that endlessly … Read more

January 2023

“What do we do now?” I knew the question was coming, but I would not have the desired answer – a solution. When Raphael asked me this on the way to work, I had to think about it a few seconds before uttering, “I don’t know.” Our latest disaster has me with the least amount … Read more

The final straw

(Author’s note: my name is the only real one. Names have been changed.) CW: there is a lot of heaviness in this entry. Mentions of abuse, physical and mental, suicide ideation, graphic description of a car accident involving minors and death mentions. Please take care when reading. I took over guardianship of my younger sister’s … Read more

Who made the pretendian part two

[Ali note: A previous version made a reference to ‘amoeba’, “Are we Indigenous or amoeba”. I’ve been informed that the “amoeba” reference has been inflicted on Natives in general but has also been used to specifically target the Lumbee. While my use of the phrase didn’t have that intention, it’s important to note that this … Read more

Who made the pretendian

How much or how little that I speak on this issue is dependent on the energy I have to put toward it. Thus, this may end up being more of a small series. While I have not spoken previously on this ‘alleged pretendian list’, I am aware of it. I’d meant to look into it … Read more

Tattoos, artists and ink

For all the times that I’ve seen offensive tattoos with Native-esque symbols or items, there has always been one thing clear — there are at least two people at fault for the offense. The person getting the disrespectful image, and the tattoo artist who inked it on them. Some time ago, I took the time … Read more

Welcome!

Thank you for taking the time to check out NTVTWT.com and my blog here. Entries are longer than would be feasible for a tweet or a tweet thread. I hope to share with you thoughts, tidbits about my family and important issues in urban and reservation life. As many things in between as well. A … Read more